I may write an Autobiography. I’ve sketched out three chapters; and a Preface – here.
A number of my friends and acquaintances – well, two or three – have suggested that I write a memoir or autobiography. I’ve always resisted this, on the grounds that I’m nowhere near important or interesting enough. (In fact my life’s ambition has always been to rise to ‘average’.) Nor do I really have the stomach for it, recalling as I do most of my early years with embarrassment, rather than pride.
Two considerations however have changed my mind on this recently. One is that I know from my own past researches that the memoirs of ‘average’ people can be as telling to a historian as those of ‘important’ ones; and even more so, in many cases, if one is wanting to plumb the Zeitgeist of a period. (I read dozens of ‘working-class’ autobiographies for my Absent-Minded Imperialists.) Secondly, and more personally, I need to write – I get depressed if I’m not doing it – and have run out of other topics to write about; or rather, at my advanced age, have run out of the concentration and energy that would be required to research them adequately. The last collection of material that I have left to work with now is my own life, locked in my brain; albeit not altogether reliably (more about that later), and not always pleasantly, for a habitual depressive like me.
I’ve also thought of a way of doing it which may be safer for me, and of more interest to others. That is to write a My Life and Times kind of book, with the ‘times’ featuring as prominently as my own petty affairs. For it is incontrovertible that I have lived through ‘interesting times’, from the 1940s to the 2020s – albeit probably no more interesting than any other comparable passage of years; and also in four different countries, which should have broadened my experience. So there must be enough here to be worth recounting, and to compensate for the embarrassing bits; which – in the interest of honesty – I shall need to refer to, but only fleetingly.
Those ‘interesting times’, to summarise, have carried me from the depths of a ‘total’ war to the collapse of the post-war consensus; taking in the loss of a world-wide empire, entry into and then exit from the post-war European Union, the creation and later partial dismantling of a welfare state, the social emancipation (to an extent) of women, foreign immigration and its repercussions, a revolution in popular music, sexual liberation following the spread of efficient means of contraception, a ‘cold war’ that threatened to become hotter under the shadow of ‘The Bomb’, the establishment of television as people’s main source of information and entertainment, the whole computer/internet thing, men on the moon, huge changes in the character of the popular Press, even greater changes in eating habits, several frightening pandemics even before Covid, the commercialisation of ‘the People’s Game’ (football), the entire reign of Britain’s longest-living monarch… and much more. That of course is an Anglocentric list. Other nationalities will have experienced the last eighty years in different – often more gruesome – ways.
My own place in this history has never been a leading or even a particularly active one, but it is one that has enabled me to observe it from a number of different points of view. That is because of my anomalous and shifting position in the all-important class structure of Britain – or of England, anyway – giving me what I think is an unusual insight into the situations, and especially the prejudices, of them all. My immediate family were aspirant lower-middle class; my paternal grandparents working class; at school I mixed with middle-middle class boys; and at university with the upper and public school-educated classes and even a few aristocrats. I got on pretty well with all of them. (The aristos were very kind.) In university vacations I worked in a factory, a dairy, and in theatres. My profession has been as an academic, at different types of university, and in three or four countries; specialising in British imperial history, for which I was sometimes mistaken to be an imperialist. I’ve written about a dozen books. I was brought up a Methodist, but enjoyed the Anglicans’ church services, and their architecture even more. I was a member of the Labour party for a long period, but with gaps when I’ve been unhappy with particular party policies. I’ve experienced marriage with a Scots-Irish wife, fatherhood, divorce, and a new relationship, this time with a Swede. I’ve lived in both the south and the north of England. I travelled extensively in Europe as a young man, and more later, when I also lived and worked for fairly long periods in the USA and Australia. I now live mainly in Sweden. My passions are architecture, music and cricket. The only substantial gap in this catalogue of life-experiences is women and girls, whom I scarcely got to know as a boy, or even at university, in my single-sex college. (This accounts for many of my ‘embarrassments’, which I shall pass over lightly here.) If all these experiences have affected my research, teaching and writing in my adult years, they are at least varied enough to have likely influenced them in divergent ways.
Of course this won’t be as ‘objective’ an account as I hope my other history books are – although it goes without saying that none of us can achieve absolute objectivity. Indeed, this is the whole point of it: to recount the history of the last eighty-odd years simply as it has appeared to and impinged on the life of just one male person who has lived through that time, studied it, and come to certain conclusions about it. Now read on. We average people need to be heard.